did i tell u that i have changed my handset??
ya.. my 3rd handphone..
it's a samsung pixon!!
yeap..
i know i have neva ventured any other brands other than nokia n sony ericsson..
but this handset is one that i cannot pass up!!
hahaha..
and it is working like clockwork..
well, at least it still is...
we see..
lol...


have been busy with the part time team chalet thingy..
credits goes to jian long for the funds collection,
and neeky for planning the food budget!
me?
well, i'm the organiser, so i dedicate taskes!
of course i make sure everything is ran smoothly..
see, jian long is rather busy nowadays,
and i cannot compromise efficiency..
so i relived him of his duties..
don't tell him pls..
hahaha..
and this is my final event for the part time team...
cannot stand the management anymore..


just paid for the exam fees..
2k right out of my own pocket!!
how i wish i can rob the cashier u know..
hahahaha..
all my hard earned money gone!!
well, not all, but u get the idea..

I passed my New Year Day holed up in bed from food poisoning..
suck...


but this bout of poisoning set off some thoughts..
was thinking how 2008 went for me..
did it really go the way i have wanted it to?
did i make the best outta last year?
the answer, sadly, was no..
i managed to stay true to myself..
by studying hard for my exams..
by slogging my ass off to fullfill my wants..
and that was all i really did!!
i did not manage to lose weight, save up more and travel..
aye...
i did not do so much..


looking at myself now,
i realised, my life is slipping through my grasp..
i am so much more prone to illness,
i am so lazy,
i am so unfit..
damn...
my finances are at a healthy level,
but i have not capitalise on the opportunities at hand to boost my financial power..
wasted..


also..
the feeling of loneliness is back..
and it really struck me point blank..
that i am no longer the 21yr old kid who has just finished National Service..
i am getting old..
and my peers are getting hitched and married..
and here i am, left walking after their shadows..
the hollow within me..


so what's my resolution for 2009?
same as per 2008's..
. . . . . . .
so this is life huh...
such a bitch it can be..
go on, laugh at me..











i hate myself for feeling this way..
and the stress is on me to deliver again..
to deliver for all your fun and laughter..
to deliver to fullfill your pride..
i feel so tired..


i just want to give up..
should i?

MERRY post CHRISTMAS!!!
Christmas is juz great!!!
presents, presents n more presents!!
honestly speaking,
this is the first time in my entire life when i receive the most presents ever!!
hahahaha..
some might not suit me, but still,
thank u all for the presents!!


it was especially nice when i receive the present from u...
and the call i got from u,
i really hope there was something more to it..
*fingers crossed for thursday*


okie, i'll probably offend a few people in this entry..
so let me say sorry before i start on the offensive...


i may have only been through one relationship,
but i feel that i have learnt a lot from it..
which is why i just cannot understand why can u two come to this situation..
there are so many problems between the two of u!!
omfg, any stranger would have thought this is a virgin relationship..
i don't take sides,
but i think that both of u are not without faults...
and yes, break up is the easiest way out always..
but i do believe a couple should work out their problems right from the start..
and communication is the only way to sustain a relationship..
so one is a bit anti-social, and the other likes to stone..
plus both are stubborn..
u can pretty well work out the end result..


in any case, both are my friends,
so of course i'll love to see u two work it out...
just prove me wrong alright...


and to u guys out there...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
in advance..

the email came from the management
and in it came these words:


Dear All,
FYNA for the attached.
Please note that Sunday's OT will be temporary suspended until further notice.



short and sweet huh...
What kind of crap is this?!?!


i seriously do not understand how this fucked up organisation works..
time and time again customers will call in to complain on how bad our management is..
and time and time again my colleagues and i,
fronting the customer service, have to pacify them..
we are temp staff..
furthermore, my personal agenda in rejoining the company is to chiong the OTs for the money..
but personal agenda aside,
look at this..
the bulk of our pay comes from OT,
especially on our off and rest days
if they say that this is an unforseen circumstance,
then why in the world did they employ such crappy weekend temps anyway?!?!
it only adds on to their current workload!!
and so they do OTs, but not us?!?!
and currently,
it is not about OTs being subjected to approval or not,
bcz there is nothing for us to even input for approval!
rather, it's about - read the words - SUSPENDED TILL FURTHER NOTICE...
even if the bitch can say that we are still allowed to fill up the slots,
it's just a temporal measure to alay our frustrations!!
the management might as well suspend my services or retrench me!!
so when they are having a shortage of staff,
they asked us to do OT for them..
and everything can be negotiated..
the bitch will be walking around, almost forcing us to fill up the OTs for them..
the the few of us "old birds" are able to siam from her malicious claws...
but even then, sometimes we still have to do it..
all the "compulsory 1hr OT",
or u'll see some poor TL going around to literally beg us to fill up the OT list..
now that they don't need us, the message is channelled through email..
cold, hard, unfeeling, non-negotiable..
didn't we learn during training that "at , we provide a personalised service to customers"?
and where is that personal touch now??
so we as employees, part-time we may be, are not customers??
does the organisation not adhere to what they preach?
and this is their so-called business ethics??
we are only in the limelight when we are needed,
only when we helped them in the monthly team rankings,
amongst other stuff..
so now that we are no longer needed, we are almost like discarded???
WTF?!?!?!?!


i really really want to quit this fucked up orgainsation..
never mind that they pay good basic wages..
never mind that they pay even better overtime wages too..
i mind their lousy, selfish and arrogant working attitude...


and i know,
so do the rest of my part time colleagues...


8yrs huh, u fat piece of shit...
maybe u have grown all cocky after rotting in that shit-hole for so long...
someday, u'll look back and see karma running after u..
and that's when u'll know the meaning of
what goes around, comes around...


the same goes for u too, u half-half...


goodluck

i am feeling damn emo tonight..
and this space really needs a story..


i know my birthday has passed,
but many thoughts still hang on the empty racks..


thank you all who managed to celebrate my birthday with me..
not that i mind..
but u know, this is the time
when u really wished that the person next to u
is not juz merely a friend..
but something more..
something much more..


prior to my birthday,
the guys at office bought randy n me a cake..
make a wish they said..
the 1st thing that came to my mind was her..
hahaha..
i'm getting weak again i know..
but i did not wish for that..


the terrorist attack on the hotels in mumbai;
that made me worry for her safey..
and i am beginning to miss her again..


take action they would say..
and my reply will always be nay..


sometimes, i wonder if everyone thinks as much as me..
heck, i wonder if anybody thinks at all..
why doesn't anyone look and plan ahead anymore?
what if i am no longer there to provide for your wants?
what would you do?


sherlynn juz got married last friday..
december 5th..
i was invited,
but had chose not to attend..
not that i did not want to give my blessings,
but respect has to be given to willy..
i'm sure she will look beautiful..
she always has..
well, i wish u everlasting marital bliss..


i know i won't be able to sleep tonight..


i am so feeling ktv now..
what the fuck...







the sights and sounds pass me by,
and i wonder when will i see you again..
but i still get no joy in your presence..
and i wonder if my heart is really dead..
this confusion is killing me..

taking some time out to fill this void..
lol..


school is going along fine..
juz trying to play catch-up with my modules..


and,
i met someone who has managed to
make me stammer while talking to her,
make my palms go cold with sweat..
she really takes my breath away..
really enchanting..
we'll see how this game goes..
*fingers crossed*


went on a shopping spree with neeky and leon..
bought lotsa stuff lah..
the damage to my wallet is @#$%^&!!!


I LOVE BEN SHERMAN!!!

my god....
this is really unbecoming of me..
practically abandoned this space for 2 months?!?!
lol..


school has started!!
and it's books galore, with boobs-fest too!!!!
hahaha...
failed IBM last year, so gonna retake as self-study module..


neeky wants to quit le..
knn..
ya i admit it is a boring job, especially for us old birds..
leon is already looking for a bank call-center job..
that sounds promising, i won't mind taking that during internship..


i'm looking to set up an online-shop or blog-shop..
selling bags n accessories for ladies..
michael n lilian are equally interested..
almost every detail has been gone over and agreed on..
but we are still unable to find a suitable supplier!!
gosh..
i really am looking forward to set up this mini entreprenuering business..
look great on my resume doesn't it??
hahaha...


k..
till then..