I have always thought that in being helpful to others, they will respond in kind to you. How stupid can I get. We live in this dog-eat-dog world of insanity. Help offered is often practically snatched off your hands without so much a word of thanks. Okay maybe they do thank you, but the sincerity of it is debateable. Sometimes, when help is constantly offered, it becomes a norm, a must that you have to offer it such that if you were to one day not do it, people will think that you are being selfish. How the fuck did we turn out like this? Beats me.
Anyhow, I only have myself to blame for this. I think I will learn to be selfish. It doesn't help for me to waste my time on others who choose to make merry and come to me in times of need. I don't want to see your pathetic face when you come begging me for help anymore; because you don't love yourself, you don't help yourself, so why should I help you?
A leopard never changes its spots.
I should really just make myself happy first, rather than the rest.
Kim Thiam asked me why are there always so many kids crowding out the Mac everyday. My reply: When you are young, you don't have much pocket money. So dining out at the Mac is considered a luxury. Of course, as you grow older, expectations and standards rise too, so your concept of luxury changes, and therefore you do not frequent the Mac.
This reminds me of what Yvonne once said,"I wish we can all remain young, like pri sch kids. No stress, no burden. Everything is so simple. I want that kind of life." Yea, I want that kind of life too. I bet we all do, but reality does not allow us the luxury. Life is about making choices, the right ones at the right time. But how many times are we truly able to choose the one most favourable to us? More often than not, it's the case of making the best choice, termed satisficing. How unsatisfying.
Alright, enough crapping, time for me to bury myself in the pile of notes. I did some calculations, and right now I need a total of 201 marks from the final 4 modules to get my 2nd Class Lower honors. I need a tremendous amount of luck and mugging. Please pray for me!
So stressed up right now, and I'm constantly stuffing myself with food. I wish someone can ask me out for ktv. I'm dying to scream my lungs out. Lol..
Je vous manque
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