the blog is not dead ok..
was busy busy with exams..
and yes, the nightmare is finally over!!
cya in another 12mths!!


yup, and i'm having a 3mths holiday~~
sounds great right??
haha..
it's not great at all man..


moving forward,
in a year's time, i'll be graduating..
and then, i'm out in the working society!!
waking up early in the morning every weekday,
dragging my feet to work when the sun is still sleeping..
man...
student life is definitely better by a long shot...
lol..


anyways,
wanted to look for a short internship..
but randy proposed that we go co-partnership in tuition coordination..
i accepted..
figured it's a good way to get some experience on setting up your own business,
managing conflicts, setting targets and achieving them etc..
this sure is going to get exciting!

wish us luck!!

how far can inconsideration go??


idiot made me wake up early in the morning,
not enough sleep never mind;
got bathed by the torrential rain,
wet never mind;
fucking bus got stuck in the fucking jam for half an hour,
cannot move never mind;
then idiot called me said he solved the bloody question last night!!
chee bye if i wasn't on the bus i think i would have screamed at him man..
c'mon lah,
at least drop me a message mah..
wasted half my fucking day,
tired, and now i'm sneezing like fuck!!!
then on my way back idiot said wanna go meet girlfriend for movie!!
so, i'm left with a wild goose chase,
and unable to get the problem solved because idiot is going out to make merry..


fuck lah, don't feel like talking liao lah..
just IDIOT lah!!!

i don't really care if my friends leave me for this..
ha! i don't know if they are friends in the first place, with all sincerity..
so, if you think you might feel offended, quit reading :)


yes exams are around the corner,
and yes, we are all nervous..
so yes, we naturally wanna do well for our papers..


what really baffles me is that where are the friends when you need them??
especially in dire times of need - desperation??
yes i can only have myself to blame for not attending classes..
lol.. but looking back, when you requested for help, were i not there for you?
and you?
and you??
i don't and hate to think that i have ever let any of them down when need was requested of me..
and, i did not ask for any favor or repayment in any kind..
what matters more than the friendship we have built together?


and there is mr lau..
this one really have to scold..
now that he is in desperate times,
he expects everyone to adhere to his requests..
throwing tantrums like a kid..
damn..
he is juz going hysterical!!
all the thoughts of knocking down peoples' doors just to force them to help him!!
like wtf lah..
hahaha..


anyway, these are my thoughts, my blog..
so if you are having any twinge of guilt after reading;
or angry or whatever,
don't be..


goodluck for your exams peeps!!

exams are less than 3 weeks away!!
damn..
i still have lotsa mugging to do!!


very tired recently,
probably from the revision ba..


i heard the song again!!
and again!!!
and again!!!!!
can't help but smile lah..
thinking of what have happened..
lol..
pretty silly don't you think??


ok, think that's enough for now..
gotta dive back into my notes!!
wish me lots and lots and lots of luck guys!! :-)

i think teaching is indeed the best and fastest way to learn..

it's been raining for the past few nights..
or days..
i can't remember..

and everytime it does,
one thing struck me..

have you ever seen rain come??
as in, you see its onslaught?

it's like a wave, or a torrent..
i heard it coming..
the sound of rain..
a torrent of heavy droplets from afar..
it's quick, and leaves no place, no nothing dry in it's wake..
i just love the feeling..
the feeling of dominance..
i love the rage it brings..
it's wrath bearing down on all as it descends from the heavens..
bringing wet judgement to all..
hahaha..
hell, yea..
i love the cool breeze that accompanies it too..
the breeze that always moves ahead, bringing with it the scent of rain to warn everything to take shelter..
then comes the judgement..
you will run, but you cannot hide from it..
the rain simply washes you over..
it has no friends nor foes..
it cleanses every nook and corner...


and a moment later, it's gone..
as quick as it has came..
and all that it leaves behind are just stains of it's presence..
which, given a few hours, will eventually evaporate into thin air..
but you remember that the rain was here before..

such is rain...

it's march 7..
tt's 3 weeks after i gave her a bunch of roses..
damages: wasted 2 friendships and wasted time to plug drain holes..
hahaha..

yea..
go ahead..
laugh at me..
because i'm laughing at myself too..

c'mon simon..
take a look in the mirror..
so much bitterness and anger w/i these few weeks..
is that really you??

looking back, i don't even recognise myself..
i was quick to judge, quick to hate, quick to rectify..
alas, all is lost..
or has it?
i don't know..

it was supposed to be a simple bouquet of roses meant for someone i have developed a tinge of romantic interest in..
so said the roses, so said thy heart, thy feelings..
well, i guess i have known the outcome before i set forth to task..
ya..
there are a billion "i should have, i should not have"..
nasty words in the heat of anger, irreversible actions done hastily..
ultimately, things have thus turned out this way..
fuck, there are a lot of things i wanna say..
but some are better left buried in me..
so let's make do with it shall we simon??

truth is, i only have myself to blame..

i'm sorry to you 2 for causing the confusion, hurt, anger and all..
shan't name names for the sake of privacy..
but you know who you are..

fuck, this is so edison chen lah.. knn..


by the way, homosapiens is just the biological term for human beings..