ok this is going to be a quick one before i get knocked out..


was out today with geraldine & wayne..
ended up in a ktv pub owned by a friend of wayne.
think it's called chit chat ktv pub or something..
anyway the next thing i know we were drinking and drinking..
and drinking..
all 3 of us were like damn high lah..
and the both of them sang..
well i didn't sing much..
but geraldine commented that my singing was quite nice..
hahaha..
thks!


ok enough of the crap..


i just wanna say,








MY THOUGHTS WERE OF YOU..
I JUST WANNA WRAP YOU IN MY ARMS & NEVER EVER LET YOU GO..


I MISS YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH

you know sometimes you have a lot of things on your mind,
and you just want to unload it somewhere.
and this is my unloading bay, my outlet..
i know i have one or two readers whom i don't really know,
not personally, like bf/gf of friends or whatever..
for those who really know me,
i'm the rational man who usually will think of every scenario possible.
but when my limits are being pushed,
i can get pretty expressive and i won't hold back.
what i want to tell you is that,
i don't really care if i offend anyone in the process of verbalising my thoughts.
hmmm..
i did, but that was over a year ago..
who cares, it's over anyway, collateral and all..


i do read others' blogs.
i know i have no right to be critical of theirs,
but i just find it strange that there is so much left unsaid..

the moment which you live in now passes by even before you know it.
we know that time is precious, but not many truly grasp the underlying meaning..
the decision you make now may seem unimportant,
but it is the little things which happen in life that affect the larger part of it..


i have done things which i regretted.
and i will have to live with these regrets for life.
yes they do mould me into who i am today,
but sometimes i wish i could have done more
rather than leave things for another day.
and that day will never come..





to all my readers,
treasure the person beside you.
because your tomorrow depends on your actions today
carpe diem








je t'aime

i'm just sad that we are unable to communicate..
i took pains to understand the world you came from,
your struggles, your aspirations..


have you ever bothered to understand mine??


your actions speak plainly for itself..


disappointed..
i think we can never hope to converse like others do..
that's the sad truth..

why does someone has to piss me off??
i just don't understand..


if you are not doing it,
then don't point and order me about..
you are not fit to do so!!

i'm so tired of your false accusations already..
i'm not your punching bag.


i'm just afraid that one day,
i will no longer be able to suppress the rage inside of me..








i realise after so long,
i still have not forgiven you for what you have done to me..
maybe i never will,
since you have never given me any chance to..

i saw the invite on facebook..
"cny reunion for zhenghua pri sch alumni"
i look at the people being invited..


sigh~


i can't remember more than half of them..
i look again..


sigh~


their lives reminds me of my failure..


sigh~


failure, and it's costs..


SIGH~

revision was good today..
did quite a fair bit..
hopefully i'll complete monec by the end of next week..




had a good evening in plaza mac..
i think whenever hui zheng and i meet,
we will just talk non-stop..
lol..
















there were 2 people in this world who i can't lie to..
now it's 3..

you, with your little imperfections, are just perfect..

i want to ask a million of u,
but i did not..
i just can't bring myself to..


maybe one day i will,
when i'm over myself..








but deep down you already know what i will ask for..

"I totally wanna give u a big great hug!"
that sentence,
the feeling..
ineffable..

your laughter resonates through my head

i will say,
i miss you,
everyday,
in every post..


but i will not be seen as a fanatic..
i will not display my weakness..








it's enough that you know..
that's enough for me..

joke of the day:

i was about to go to bed,
and guess what..
i'm afraid to sleep because i'm afraid to dream..


got a nightmare last night..
and it's been years since i last had a nightmare..


makes me feel so pathetic..
like some kid..
think i've lost my balls..
fuck man what's wrong with me

the incidences of coincidences occurring are getting greater and greater..
cannot be right..
where got so 巧的..


always missing each other by a bit..
or thinking about the same stuff..
or whatever whatever..
hai~~


morning she got motion sickness..
evening i got motion sickness..
what the hell..


i wonder what's next..
hmmm