exchanging stories is so fun!!
hahaha..

so worried but there's nothing i can do about it..

history shows that i seem to have a liking for girls who are attached..
how strangely coincidental can it get..
lol..




i woke up this morning thinking that you were here with me..
only to realise it's just a dream..








when will my dreams turn into reality.. 

pele complained that i don't blog about him..
what the hell...
so ya..
pele, i am reserving this post just for you man..
lol..


pele is my boyfriend in school.
ya you read that right..
i'm not homo, neither is he..
but we are just. you know, broke-back brothers!!
this man is such a nice guy..
he will scan my student card for me,
chop seat for me,
lend me notes to copy,
etc etc..
so sweet right!!


ya, that's pele for you..
and he's single..
with a cute pot belly..


up for grabs i supposed??
i don't mean his tyres though..
=)

someday..


one day..


=)

i miss you..


but i miss you not..

broken promises,
broken trust..


don't say it if you don't mean it..

为何爱上你的是我
我只是路过的戏份
却又不愿升上白旗


今夜的你会想起我吗？

disappointed..
but life goes on..


frustrated..
we live in a world of lies and deceit..


hope..
leon: you are hoping for too much..
am i?


headache..
tomorrow is so going to be a bad day for me..


tired..
i am having problems sleeping again..


disappointed, frustrated, hope, headache, tired..
pretty much sums up my fucked up day..


gdnite

what do we all live for?








i live for hope, love,
and what that is to come..


what about you?

i guess it wasn't as hard as i have imagined..
basically you just need to talk & talk,
see their reactions, body language,
guage their thoughts,
and react accordingly..
lol..
the tough part is in the sourcing and coordination..


shopping list for the new year:
1. a pair of brown leather shoes
2. new handphone
3. can i shop for money??

will be in yishun in about 12hrs' time..
tinkering with the minds of potential flat buyers..
this is going to be really fun..
hahaha..
and hopefully, close a deal!
wish me luck!

definitely sober now..
lol..


early celebration for neeky's birthday last night..
venue: new york new york @ citylink
activity: dinner
review: food portion is uber big, and relatively yummy too
however the service level of the staff is very low..
verdict: 8/10 (recommended dining place for large groups)


popped by wine bar to chill out..
and i have no idea why i became the one who is supposed to finish all the beer!!
i certainly did not order tt!
lol..
anyway got a little high after that..
needed a few puffs to kill off the feeling..


congrats to neeky for passing her driving test!!
yeah!! finally got one more person to chauffeur me around

i'm not all that sober right now.
i mean, i still am sober, but not totally sober..
hell, in short, it means i'm a little high..
haha..


high i may be,
but i do know what i am doing right now..


hmmm...
it doesn't hurt once in a while to let my fingers run along with my heart


i just wanna tell you that,
i miss you lots..
wished that you were there with us today.


someone said that love is erratic,
like a volcano.
it erupts without warning,
spilling it's magma and toxic gases.
and all of a sudden,
it subsides as unexpectedly..


i think love is just a nurturing of bond between 2 people..
i don't believe in love at 1st sight,
maybe because i have not encounter it before..
in any case, i believe love is pure, innocent, fun, exciting..
i believe love is about acceptance, tolerance..
and with it comes the other end of the spectrum too..
i know, after 4yrs,
i'm in love again..


i lie on my bed staring at the stars,
waiting for sleep to claim my soul tonight..
where will you be my sweetheart..
why does my heart ache thus much?
do you feel the rhythmic pumping of my heart?








i hope i will never have to hear you say the final sorry to me..
i'll wait, just don't break my heart like they did..

so something did happen..
just can't believe that my parents did not inform me before calling the plumber..
how many i supposed to use the bathroom??
i mean i needa get out by 6pm,
and there they are,
the plumbers trying to fix the broken toilet bowl..
and they are working like damn freaking slow!
hai~~


i wanna shheee shhhee also cannot!!
damn

woke up this morning with an empty feeling..
damit
this isn't a good time for me to get all emotional.






have a bad feeling about this evening..

hit the sack around 8.30pm last night..
and the next time i opened my eyes,
it 9.30am!
13hrs of sleep!
wah that's damn rare..
my daily sleeping hours average between 6-7hrs.
13hrs is twice of that already,
like i'm sleeping for 2 days!
lol..
okk enough of the crap.




contacted a few leads yesterday,
and i was pretty surprised that they want to look for a new flat.
i mean CNY is coming,
like a bit weird to change units now..
anyhow, it's still money to be earnt.
smell it!!












apparently you are not being pampered enough,
hence the illness..
hahaha..
get well soon!

won't it be nice if you can wake up smiling everyday?
i'll wish for that..


i glanced at the seat beside me..
the empty seat..
how i wish you were here..
your laughter will fill the space between us,
and nothing else really matters..

i felt relief washed over me..
lol..
i finally let loose..
so it's bye bye come end of jan for tuition,
and hello property!!
a bit sad to see my efforts plugged,
but lessons have been learnt,
so it's time for the next challenge..
=)

this is the 2nd time you gave me that look again..
eyes that tell me you have something to say,
but just cannot bring yourself to...








one day,
i really really hope that,
you will say those magic words to me..








i just want to take you into my embrace,
and let the world fade away..

i miss you

it's not that i hate you or anything..
it just your attitude towards me isn't like how partners should treat each other
and we are not exactly making sufficient profits..


how do i tell you that i want out?



kevan: do u love her?
me: lol.. what a question to ask. but i guess, i am starting to. everything about her just seem perfect to me.
kevan: oh..
-silence-
me: it's kinda wrong to ask me this question isn't it?
kevan: lol..
-silence again-
me: i think she caught the rhythm to my heart.


 






there are just some things that once said
will forever change the bond between us..
so am i supposed to whisper them into the tin can
and bury it under the tree?

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
it's 2010..


i hope you guys had a fantastic time at the countdown!
i was slacking at home,
with my phone and tv for company..


new year,
new beginning..
so comes the resolutions..


not much..
you know,
for the past few years,
every year is the same to me..
and so are my resolutions..


here goes my resolutions for 2010:
1. get my degree
2. earn big $$$$$
3. be happy, really happy


lol.. yup it's that simple..
of course there are others i have in mind,
but with the everchanging environment,
i don't know what will come next..
best to keep it simple..

so what is/are your new year resolution(s)?








you are the first in my thoughts when i open my eyes everyday..
i guess infatuation just took on a different level..