it's 8 days to my first paper!!
have not been into an examination hall since i left NTU back in 2006..


speaking of my decision 2 years ago..


sherlynn has just left me..
i guess her absence affected me greatly..
she practically made up one half of me..
so much so that i flunged my papers..
and 3 semesters with lots of re-sits later,
i decided that that just isn't my cup of tea..
coupled with that were the shadows of her which i just cannot seem to shake off..
it was a tough one, deciding to leave all behind me..
breaking the news to my parents was even tougher..
till now, i still have not the courage to say this to u..
i guess this is the only place for me to say it..

daddy, mommy, i'm sorry..

after quitting ntu, i was at a lost still..
i was effectively left with nothing - no cert, no skill..
i know i have to do something to get my life back on track..
so came the decision to enrol for UOL-SIM..
and the discipline - BSc Economics and Management
econs has always been my weakest subject in junior college..
and i am going to face it again!
hahaha..
during the wait for school to start, i joined starhub..
work was routine, customers were weird, but the pay was awesome!!
so started the endless OTs..

then school started!!!
i was quite surprised actually..
u can walk around NTU for the whole day,
but u will rarely find someone dressed as trendily as in SIM!!
really!!
lol.. it was a feast for the eyes lah..
o ya.. the boys started off their conversations with "so, which unit were u from?"
hahahaha..
c'mon man, i ORD-ed eons ago alrite?!
it was obvious that i am among the oldest in the lecture theater..
well, nothing to be proud of..

hmm.. time flies.. like the turn of a page..
and here we are, on the last day of april..
i have since resigned from starhub to concentrate on my exams..

i know i have studied, but i still feel nervous..
i have a lot to prove, and much more to show to the world....
heads up people!




I'M BACK!!

**fingers crossed** hahaha











it's a tragic kingdom isn't it..

it's WORLD EMILY DAY!!!


today, jared n i pledged not to scold emily -
if she makes careless mistakes;
if she does not know how to do her sums;
if she whines;
if she throws tantrums;
if she whacks jared or me!!


we'll be nice to emily..
n we have been!!
like extremely nice can..

it was an unproductive day..
too much movement..
too much crapping..
too many unanswered questions...
arghhhhhhhhh

still, i am pretty burnt out..
as agreed by emily,
our brains seem to be getting saturated..
and marginal returns to scale is decreasing..
damn... was that econs i just mentioned??


i think i need a small break...



ktv anyone??
emily? jared? leon? dine? fion?


chill out session also can..
i want to visit peranakan place and mezzebar!!

i don't know what i should blog abt..
so i asked emily..
she said,"emily very hot"


ok....



EMILY VERY HOT...


very hot ah...
go take a shower lah..
or turn on the air con loh...

neeky commented that i am happy..
hahahaha..
yes i am..
i have no reason not to..
i have finally managed to make her laugh..
n i know it's a genuine laughter coming from her..
she is finally feeling better..
slightly..


stay happy..
n have a safe trip!!
we'll meet up soon!
i promise a prawning day!!



i love emily's blog!!
makes me laugh until pengz everytime!!
hahahaha..

u are asking for my help..
but u are not letting me in..
tell me how..
how am i to help u??


u can cry with me..

sometimes i wonder if u are my enemy..
an enemy who has watched me grew up..
an enemy who sleeps under the same roof as me..
an enemy who laughs with me..
an enemy who stabs me whenever i turn my back..
an enemy who cares more for itself than me..
an enemy who hurts whoever that comes close to me..
i really wonder..

i m turning into an emotional wreck soon..

i really hope u can understand me..
understand my plight..
understand my heart..


pls,
don't turn me into the person i was 2 years ago..
he lies asleep deep within me..
and i intend to keep it that way..




my fingers tremble again...

i know many friends find me ...
weird; too uncle; and what not...
i don't care much of their comments really..
i believe in staying true to oneself,
without fronting a lying face ALL THE TIME..
that's fucking tiring, no?


each and everyone of us has a unique set of beliefs;
which we stay faithful to..
it is truly a great pity,
that religion gets in the way of love..

another heart is cracked into two..
sometimes,
there's just too much that time cannot erase..
and the wounds won't seem to heal..

i don't why i always feel this way..
but whenever my close friends face the onslaught of a break up,
i feel sad..
not the way people say it and words pass on to nothingness..
there seems to be a tingle,
a jolt maybe of pain running through me..
it's as if i was in the relationship together with them..


stay strong..





misery loves company..
call me if u wish to..

And she came to me..
And she has that look in her eyes..
And that look which i cannot bear to see..

And so it begins..

And he knows the answer..
And the answer which he had most wanted to get..
And he teared with joy..

And so it begins..


And so it is....

i m no longer reading the script..
it is confusing me..

i heard smth today..
i wonder if it is for real..

it sux to have exams..
totally!!
u revise, u forget!!
n u revise again!!
n u forget again!!
damn!!
i guess tt's y the teachs always remind us to revise again n again..
hahahaha..



i forgot abt wayne's birthday!!
geraldine too!!
treated him to a meal at a HK cafe,
n a great ktv session at NewWay KTV,
all in great msia!!
so freaking cheap man!!!
lol..

we talked abt the good old training days..
talked abt each n everyone of the training buddies..
how i always crack lame shit with them..
how william tried in vain to woo jessica..
how jackson kept trying to sell insurance during class..
how isaac wow the gals with his bulging "meat" in tights!!
hahaha..

g: look at ah seng!!! he has chg so much lah!!!
w: ya lah.. lol.. last time look like lao uncle..
g: ya man! looks much better now.. but the uncle label remains! lol..
w: hahaha.. n he was late for 1st day at work man..
me: i'm glad lah.. seriously, i looked crap back then man.. lol..

anyways,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE!!



YuJiao has left SH!!
was invited to have supper with them..
man, i'll seriously love to,
but been buried in my notes for the whole day.
too tired to even hold the steering wheel..
still managed to text her a well-wishing msg though..
she has always been the quiet one in office..
a v efficient, no nonsense gal...
we'll still see each other in sch gal!!


her msg seems lacking in zest..
so i asked after her..
she replied tt i was reading too much!!
lol..
well...


i hit the sack..
n juz b4 sleep enveloped me,
i almost forgot abt it's 04/04/08!!
let my fingers do the talking..
MERRY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL!!


n the dreams came again..

extreme ways