i have great news to share!!


i'm pregnant!!!


lol...
just joking lah..


i'm leaving the fucked up place!!!
yea!!!
last day will be feb 2nd..
wah...
and my leave has been approved!!!
woohoooooooooooooo!!!
was so happy that my occupancy last night was 73%
record breaking okie...
wonder when was the last time i even hit 60%...
hahaha..


so guys and gals,
i'll be at the chalet for both days!!
cya!

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment   You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Death
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as i was about to drift off to slumberland last night,
i just realised something..
my exams are REALLY REALLY near!!
i mean, ya i did know that..
but, when i think about the pile of unread notes on my desk...
that is something else altogether!
damn..
i have slacked for half a semester!!
and with that thought,
i almost could not sleep last night..
i have to admit,
it was and still is fucking scary lah!!!
hahahha..


anyway,
decided to wake up early today to tidy my desk..
yup it has been sometime since i last did any "desk-keeping"
at least i have more space now to work..


so next is to put the plan into action!!
jan - msm
feb - poa, me
mar - macro
apr - ibm











god help us all...

did i tell u that i have changed my handset??
ya.. my 3rd handphone..
it's a samsung pixon!!
yeap..
i know i have neva ventured any other brands other than nokia n sony ericsson..
but this handset is one that i cannot pass up!!
hahaha..
and it is working like clockwork..
well, at least it still is...
we see..
lol...


have been busy with the part time team chalet thingy..
credits goes to jian long for the funds collection,
and neeky for planning the food budget!
me?
well, i'm the organiser, so i dedicate taskes!
of course i make sure everything is ran smoothly..
see, jian long is rather busy nowadays,
and i cannot compromise efficiency..
so i relived him of his duties..
don't tell him pls..
hahaha..
and this is my final event for the part time team...
cannot stand the management anymore..


just paid for the exam fees..
2k right out of my own pocket!!
how i wish i can rob the cashier u know..
hahahaha..
all my hard earned money gone!!
well, not all, but u get the idea..

I passed my New Year Day holed up in bed from food poisoning..
suck...


but this bout of poisoning set off some thoughts..
was thinking how 2008 went for me..
did it really go the way i have wanted it to?
did i make the best outta last year?
the answer, sadly, was no..
i managed to stay true to myself..
by studying hard for my exams..
by slogging my ass off to fullfill my wants..
and that was all i really did!!
i did not manage to lose weight, save up more and travel..
aye...
i did not do so much..


looking at myself now,
i realised, my life is slipping through my grasp..
i am so much more prone to illness,
i am so lazy,
i am so unfit..
damn...
my finances are at a healthy level,
but i have not capitalise on the opportunities at hand to boost my financial power..
wasted..


also..
the feeling of loneliness is back..
and it really struck me point blank..
that i am no longer the 21yr old kid who has just finished National Service..
i am getting old..
and my peers are getting hitched and married..
and here i am, left walking after their shadows..
the hollow within me..


so what's my resolution for 2009?
same as per 2008's..
. . . . . . .
so this is life huh...
such a bitch it can be..
go on, laugh at me..











i hate myself for feeling this way..
and the stress is on me to deliver again..
to deliver for all your fun and laughter..
to deliver to fullfill your pride..
i feel so tired..


i just want to give up..
should i?