It's good to see you again..

I kinda miss chatting with you..

First and foremost, I want to thank Susan for her big help in designing the pictorial header. It's really nice don't you think so? Lol.. 'Carpe diem' may not be the best quote but I could not think of anything else at the moment when she asked me. Hahaha. Anyhow, it's still nice! Thank you Susan!


The recent headlines seem to be very much on local director Jack Neo and his scandals. And before that we have Tiger Woods, John Terry, Ashley Cole showing the world their sexcapades, all within the last few months. My, my, fame and its side effects. It seems to me that with money and fame, men tend to hunger for more. Kevan and I had this discussion once, that once you get rich, your definition of desires is at a whole new level. The scandals are somewhat like shoplifting; you are nervous and scared initially, but as you repeat the process over and over again, confidence brews in you, and you become bold and rash. That's when you get careless, and something will slip. Thank you so much for showing the world how bad us men can be. Trading your family, marriage, career for sex, lust, pleasure and thrill, is it really worth it all? What about the marriage vows made in the presence of family, relatives, and friends? Tsk. Hence the term 'dickhead'.


Exams are looming in the horizon. May it is. Give me your blessings people, for I will need them to get my 2nd Class Lower Honors! :)

I have always thought that in being helpful to others, they will respond in kind to you. How stupid can I get. We live in this dog-eat-dog world of insanity. Help offered is often practically snatched off your hands without so much a word of thanks. Okay maybe they do thank you, but the sincerity of it is debateable. Sometimes, when help is constantly offered, it becomes a norm, a must that you have to offer it such that if you were to one day not do it, people will think that you are being selfish. How the fuck did we turn out like this? Beats me.

Anyhow, I only have myself to blame for this. I think I will learn to be selfish. It doesn't help for me to waste my time on others who choose to make merry and come to me in times of need. I don't want to see your pathetic face when you come begging me for help anymore; because you don't love yourself, you don't help yourself, so why should I help you?

A leopard never changes its spots.

I should really just make myself happy first, rather than the rest.


Kim Thiam asked me why are there always so many kids crowding out the Mac everyday. My reply: When you are young, you don't have much pocket money. So dining out at the Mac is considered a luxury. Of course, as you grow older, expectations and standards rise too, so your concept of luxury changes, and therefore you do not frequent the Mac.

This reminds me of what Yvonne once said,"I wish we can all remain young, like pri sch kids. No stress, no burden. Everything is so simple. I want that kind of life." Yea, I want that kind of life too. I bet we all do, but reality does not allow us the luxury. Life is about making choices, the right ones at the right time. But how many times are we truly able to choose the one most favourable to us? More often than not, it's the case of making the best choice, termed satisficing. How unsatisfying. 


Alright, enough crapping, time for me to bury myself in the pile of notes. I did some calculations, and right now I need a total of 201 marks from the final 4 modules to get my 2nd Class Lower honors. I need a tremendous amount of luck and mugging. Please pray for me!


So stressed up right now, and I'm constantly stuffing myself with food. I wish someone can ask me out for ktv. I'm dying to scream my lungs out. Lol..








Je vous manque

i have been drinking quite a fair bit over the past few weeks.
that's so unbecoming of me.
i have been coming home late for the past few weeks.
that's so unbecoming of me.
i have not been catching up on my revision.
that's so unbecoming of me.

i have wasted a lot of time.
that's very unbecoming of me.


it's time to stop the nonsense.

it's time to go into retreat.




i love my friends.
please love yourselves too.