i have seen too much..
i have heard too much..
i have known too much..

i see smiles all ard me..
i hear laughter all ard me..
but,
who can see the pain behind the smiles?
who can hear the pain through the laughter?

i have asked myself,
issit always me?
m i to b the cushion for them?
they seem to know tt i m the one..
the one to share their thoughts,
the one to comfort them,
the one to tear with them,
the one to take away their pain..
n they always find me..

i dun mind listening..
i dun mind soothing their wounds..
i have been through all tt they r experiencing..
i can read their minds..

who is able to read mine?
who understands me at all?











u have came to me..
crying,
i saw it in ur eyes..
i will wipe away ur tears..
i will cushion it for u..
i will heal ur wounds..
juz as i have done so for the many others..

偏爱你

i cried today..
not for myself..
for u..
u who is so hurt,
u who is so in love,
u who is coming in betw..
i share ur pain,
n who will take away mine..
my heart bleeds..


抬头看著天空
这样站在路口
想念无法挣脱
要你给一分钟
你从门里探出了头
没有开口说什么
我们就保持著沉默
试著再握紧双手
请别再说要走
也别管能爱多久
真的不能承受
没有你的空洞
就当爱情覆水难收
不要自由的是我
不要说你不适合我你
就是我的所有
偏爱你 爱到底
抵挡你为爱所受的折磨
失去你 就算拥有世界
也不会心动
偏爱你 爱到底
完成你对生命全部要求
是因为你 我才努力的活


i m crying for u all...

breathe...

this is the 2nd day dbl banking huin..
it's draining me lah..
mentally n physically.. juz totally..
good thing is tt he is learning, though not as fast as i hoped..

n i found out smth abt him too..
i know ur little secret man.... *winks*
hahahahahaha..

parents r back from china..
there goes my peace!!!
i m no longer the lord of da house!!

i always have this dream..
to get a condo unit, be it a studio or 3-rm unit..
then i can have my own privacy, my own utopia.. lol..
n tt's like so far away from present..











i can't get u outta my head..
i'm lost in ur mesmerising eyes..
ur smiles seem etched into eternity..

my new ride: Porsche

got up this morning with one aim in mind..
get tt pair of shoes..
went to queensway shopping centre today with neeky n zhiwei..
finally bought the pair of limited porsche edition shoes from adidas!!
n it costs freaking $219.. lol..
i muz b mad..
but it's juz so damn nice lah..
i juz can't help being in love with leather..

juz had supper with the rest of the team at spize..
wee leong told us some really lame jokes lah..
made me laughed so hard tt my back hurts man.. wtf haha..

happie bdae seng!!

it was a day to remb.. 24/11/07 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIMON!!
a date with charmaine n neeky!! the babe n the funkster!! haha..
anyway, was supposed to go heeren to get tt pair of limited adidas porsche edition shoes de..
turns out the size is too big, n tt's their last pair!! wthhhhhhhh...
disappointment aside, i m gg to queensway tmr to find my size!!
neeky did manage to get herself a new wallet though.. from fossil..
n charmaine a blue tee.. retail therapy!!
those guys at the retail outlet look damn gay in their tight tees, complete with tigh jeans n slippers, n suspenders lah!! to top it off, there's a "snap me" badge attached to the suspenders lah..
i did ask neeky to have a go at the snapping.. haha..

it was a treat for the PTG at xin wang..
but juz when i thought i could really knock off for the day, sherman had a mgr call..
like wth.. lol..
n it dragged on n on!!
it was abt 1.40am when we finally left office!!
chiam, michael n i were starving like wad lah.... lol..
did manage to settle the jan'08 PTG chalet bbq food thingy..
n guess who was the think tank?? salikin!!! thks man!!!!!

but anyway, my good bro ches was not able to join us..
he did ask to split bill betw us though..
appreciate the kindness bro, but think u shd clear ur BL status with the u-know-who(s) 1st.. lol..
i'll absorb the cost for the time being ba..

chk out the pics!! courtesy of charmaine the babe!!
- pending pics from her -

supper was really great!!!
michael n chiam were basically like 2 starving beggars lah.. haha.. paiseh.. lol..
i mean, they really eat a lot!! n i really mean a l-o-t.. haha..