sometimes i wonder if u are my enemy..
an enemy who has watched me grew up..
an enemy who sleeps under the same roof as me..
an enemy who laughs with me..
an enemy who stabs me whenever i turn my back..
an enemy who cares more for itself than me..
an enemy who hurts whoever that comes close to me..
i really wonder..

i m turning into an emotional wreck soon..

i really hope u can understand me..
understand my plight..
understand my heart..


pls,
don't turn me into the person i was 2 years ago..
he lies asleep deep within me..
and i intend to keep it that way..




my fingers tremble again...

i know many friends find me ...
weird; too uncle; and what not...
i don't care much of their comments really..
i believe in staying true to oneself,
without fronting a lying face ALL THE TIME..
that's fucking tiring, no?


each and everyone of us has a unique set of beliefs;
which we stay faithful to..
it is truly a great pity,
that religion gets in the way of love..

another heart is cracked into two..
sometimes,
there's just too much that time cannot erase..
and the wounds won't seem to heal..

i don't why i always feel this way..
but whenever my close friends face the onslaught of a break up,
i feel sad..
not the way people say it and words pass on to nothingness..
there seems to be a tingle,
a jolt maybe of pain running through me..
it's as if i was in the relationship together with them..


stay strong..





misery loves company..
call me if u wish to..

And she came to me..
And she has that look in her eyes..
And that look which i cannot bear to see..

And so it begins..

And he knows the answer..
And the answer which he had most wanted to get..
And he teared with joy..

And so it begins..


And so it is....

i m no longer reading the script..
it is confusing me..

i heard smth today..
i wonder if it is for real..

it sux to have exams..
totally!!
u revise, u forget!!
n u revise again!!
n u forget again!!
damn!!
i guess tt's y the teachs always remind us to revise again n again..
hahahaha..



i forgot abt wayne's birthday!!
geraldine too!!
treated him to a meal at a HK cafe,
n a great ktv session at NewWay KTV,
all in great msia!!
so freaking cheap man!!!
lol..

we talked abt the good old training days..
talked abt each n everyone of the training buddies..
how i always crack lame shit with them..
how william tried in vain to woo jessica..
how jackson kept trying to sell insurance during class..
how isaac wow the gals with his bulging "meat" in tights!!
hahaha..

g: look at ah seng!!! he has chg so much lah!!!
w: ya lah.. lol.. last time look like lao uncle..
g: ya man! looks much better now.. but the uncle label remains! lol..
w: hahaha.. n he was late for 1st day at work man..
me: i'm glad lah.. seriously, i looked crap back then man.. lol..

anyways,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE!!



YuJiao has left SH!!
was invited to have supper with them..
man, i'll seriously love to,
but been buried in my notes for the whole day.
too tired to even hold the steering wheel..
still managed to text her a well-wishing msg though..
she has always been the quiet one in office..
a v efficient, no nonsense gal...
we'll still see each other in sch gal!!


her msg seems lacking in zest..
so i asked after her..
she replied tt i was reading too much!!
lol..
well...


i hit the sack..
n juz b4 sleep enveloped me,
i almost forgot abt it's 04/04/08!!
let my fingers do the talking..
MERRY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL!!


n the dreams came again..

extreme ways